Of God and No God

Sometimes it’s a bit confusing, whether God is up there or not, whether He’s actually showing His love towards us or not…
I mean, I used to believe that He is a passionate God, a God who is kind enough to care about the world and all humans,
but now after knowing more (okay…not all, but at least more) about the God in the bible, I started to not knowing who is
Him. Somehow He has a different definition of happiness…He has a different definition of mercy…He has a different opinion
on love…not of this world…then how are we supposed to relate and agree with Him?